You didn’t build that…

12 But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God,
13 who were born, not of blood nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man, but of God. (John 1:12,13)

If you did it it isn’t done. Christ came to save the ungodly. He did not come to give sinners the chance to save themselves. Surrender to Christ as the helpless and hopeless person you are. It’s the posture of repentance. Only when we see the folly of self does God and the good news about Jesus become attractive.